8D -- I can somehow see Toshio keeping certain things from Seishin lest he becomes more corrupted. He's even demonstrated it before. Not for preventing him from becoming more evil though, but the action is similar. I can also see Toshio faring better with Seishin leaving him than the other way around though.
Seishin is really a curious character, Toshio is much more easily understandable -- but that's what makes him more intriguing to analyze. What you said about Seishin underestimating the weight of Toshio's feelings for him though, that makes me wonder. What if that's because he underestimates the importance of his own self that he also underestimates people's feelings for him? It's possible. As for the theory on Seishin just hanging out with Toshio because of lifetime of a habit though, I'm quite against that. As shown in certain parts in Shiki, where Seishin admits to feeling he had to be Toshio's breaks ever since he was small. I think this has less to do with him actually caring about others to that degree that he looks after them, and more because he's 'set' on a certain goal that's very much Toshio-related. I chose to conclude this because Seishin doesn't actually care that much about others, other than what's the standard. If he's so hellbent on making others happy that he forgets about himself (that others' happiness is his happiness) then I'd be against this conclusion. (tbh by how submissive he is he seems like he's the actually caring type, but considering his upbringing, duty and his depression I don't think that's because it's how he actually is) He cares a lot about Toshio, he purposefully makes his life revolve around the man, to the point he'd like to 'control' him, that's because of this said 'goal'.
I have another theory in that, Seishin is actually an atheist but one might ask why he was still here in Sotoba? I think, that also has to do with Toshio, along with his duty: because Toshio chose to be a doctor. Seishin once said to Toshio that one had to follow his own dream, to which Toshio is undecided. But finally Toshio submitted and became a doctor, which I think, a big factor that sealed Seishin's fate back to square one -- becoming a monk. If Toshio chose another goal, perhaps Seishin would also choose not to be a monk. Toshio is his tie to Sotoba.
I think just how like Toshio's clearly affectionate towards Seishin, so is Seishin towards Toshio. Seishin often seeks comfort from the man. Visiting him regardless of the hour shows his selfishness, disappearing without announcement shows it too. It's funny that Seishin rarely thinks about Toshio, but his actions always cater to his needs -- while Toshio often thinks or talk about him fondly, clearly sentimental he is about him, while his actions don't show it, because he doesn't act for Seishin. He moves towards his own goal, but in the process he moves Seishin along with him (perhaps unknowingly), until that destined moment.
Seishin's a romantic and he's somewhat cliched from the looks of it -- the cliche in romantic works, in that one needs another to define themselves. He clashes with Toshio, what if he eventually clashes with Sunako too? One of my biggest dreams is to see Seishin standing on his very own two feet. For now this is still quite impossible perhaps, but I'd like to see him to someday when he's older, stronger, wiser. He's got a near immortal life now -- I believe he will, someday.
I assume you do too then? Lolol, but yeah Toshio is a very admirable man. Btw, you have a tumblr right? I have one too 8DD
Re: 8D
Seishin is really a curious character, Toshio is much more easily understandable -- but that's what makes him more intriguing to analyze. What you said about Seishin underestimating the weight of Toshio's feelings for him though, that makes me wonder. What if that's because he underestimates the importance of his own self that he also underestimates people's feelings for him? It's possible. As for the theory on Seishin just hanging out with Toshio because of lifetime of a habit though, I'm quite against that. As shown in certain parts in Shiki, where Seishin admits to feeling he had to be Toshio's breaks ever since he was small. I think this has less to do with him actually caring about others to that degree that he looks after them, and more because he's 'set' on a certain goal that's very much Toshio-related. I chose to conclude this because Seishin doesn't actually care that much about others, other than what's the standard. If he's so hellbent on making others happy that he forgets about himself (that others' happiness is his happiness) then I'd be against this conclusion. (tbh by how submissive he is he seems like he's the actually caring type, but considering his upbringing, duty and his depression I don't think that's because it's how he actually is) He cares a lot about Toshio, he purposefully makes his life revolve around the man, to the point he'd like to 'control' him, that's because of this said 'goal'.
I have another theory in that, Seishin is actually an atheist but one might ask why he was still here in Sotoba? I think, that also has to do with Toshio, along with his duty: because Toshio chose to be a doctor. Seishin once said to Toshio that one had to follow his own dream, to which Toshio is undecided. But finally Toshio submitted and became a doctor, which I think, a big factor that sealed Seishin's fate back to square one -- becoming a monk. If Toshio chose another goal, perhaps Seishin would also choose not to be a monk. Toshio is his tie to Sotoba.
I think just how like Toshio's clearly affectionate towards Seishin, so is Seishin towards Toshio. Seishin often seeks comfort from the man. Visiting him regardless of the hour shows his selfishness, disappearing without announcement shows it too. It's funny that Seishin rarely thinks about Toshio, but his actions always cater to his needs -- while Toshio often thinks or talk about him fondly, clearly sentimental he is about him, while his actions don't show it, because he doesn't act for Seishin. He moves towards his own goal, but in the process he moves Seishin along with him (perhaps unknowingly), until that destined moment.
Seishin's a romantic and he's somewhat cliched from the looks of it -- the cliche in romantic works, in that one needs another to define themselves. He clashes with Toshio, what if he eventually clashes with Sunako too? One of my biggest dreams is to see Seishin standing on his very own two feet. For now this is still quite impossible perhaps, but I'd like to see him to someday when he's older, stronger, wiser. He's got a near immortal life now -- I believe he will, someday.
I assume you do too then? Lolol, but yeah Toshio is a very admirable man. Btw, you have a tumblr right? I have one too 8DD