Yeah! I agree, definitely, that Seishin is trapped in this painful cycle where he can't open up to his fellow villagers, but he can't open up to Ozaki either completely. I've found this to be absolutely true even with my own experiences where I'd like to talk about something that others might judge me for, and I'd like to talk to a close friend, but then I'm like "No...they'll remember it forever." Especially if it's something you just want to discuss and forget. I'm not saying that Seishin wants to forget whatever he'd confide in to Ozaki, but perhaps he feels that Ozaki will treat him differently because of it. Already because of his attempted suicide, the villagers are treating him like he's brittle as glass, liable to break at any moment. It would be unbearable to Seishin if his best friend, someone he looks up to, were to suddenly stop being jokey and playful with him and started to treat him as a patient liable to hurt himself. So even if Ozaki is in the village with him, Seishin is still isolated within Sotoba. It's an interesting thought.
When Seishin tells Ozaki off, it almost seems as if he's educating a student on how to behave. But if you take our conversation about him into account, it might seem like he's trying desperately to mold Ozaki back into his ideal image of his best friend. To take a new angle with Seishin, would we go so far as to say he craves being in control? He is so controlled even that he has a firm grip on his own emotions and carefully conceals his real self from the villagers, showing them only what he wants them to see. It takes a great strength of will to do that, which hints at Seishin's inner strength. But by trying to mold Ozaki into being a role model best friend with no flaws, and failing, Seishin may feel like he's losing control. So when Ozaki reveals that he's going to kill all of the Shiki, this is so against Seishin's moral compass that he realizes that he has no way of making Ozaki into his perfect image again, or indeed, trying to disillusion himself into making Ozaki seem perfect in his mind. The feel of slipping control could drive him to go to Kanemasa, maybe out of exhaustion from trying to take control all the time--Sunako then takes the reins and Seishin remains passive throughout the story until the end.
Then maybe when Seishin kills Ohkawa, he's not suddenly assertive as we thought at first? Maybe he's already so exhausted and broken and, like you said, threatened by his own people. He sees that Sunako, who has helped bring peace to his mind, is about to be taken away, he does anything possible to get her to stay with him. Sunako's a lucky girl, to be shown such devotion!
(PS-- your analyses about human interactions are just fine!! :D)
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When Seishin tells Ozaki off, it almost seems as if he's educating a student on how to behave. But if you take our conversation about him into account, it might seem like he's trying desperately to mold Ozaki back into his ideal image of his best friend. To take a new angle with Seishin, would we go so far as to say he craves being in control? He is so controlled even that he has a firm grip on his own emotions and carefully conceals his real self from the villagers, showing them only what he wants them to see. It takes a great strength of will to do that, which hints at Seishin's inner strength. But by trying to mold Ozaki into being a role model best friend with no flaws, and failing, Seishin may feel like he's losing control. So when Ozaki reveals that he's going to kill all of the Shiki, this is so against Seishin's moral compass that he realizes that he has no way of making Ozaki into his perfect image again, or indeed, trying to disillusion himself into making Ozaki seem perfect in his mind. The feel of slipping control could drive him to go to Kanemasa, maybe out of exhaustion from trying to take control all the time--Sunako then takes the reins and Seishin remains passive throughout the story until the end.
Then maybe when Seishin kills Ohkawa, he's not suddenly assertive as we thought at first? Maybe he's already so exhausted and broken and, like you said, threatened by his own people. He sees that Sunako, who has helped bring peace to his mind, is about to be taken away, he does anything possible to get her to stay with him. Sunako's a lucky girl, to be shown such devotion!
(PS-- your analyses about human interactions are just fine!! :D)