We can tie Seishin to the real world and say that because of his introspection, that means he's self-conscious. Well, it's true..most people who struggle with depression and not belonging and stuff are usually people who analyze their actions and the world around them. People like Ozaki, however, who don't see the world as simply as Seishin, actually end up doing better because they don't overcomplicate things, like how I feel Seishin does sometimes. If you think about it, *why* does he spend so much time musing about his own personal God? Why does it matter? Surely, he would be happier if he didn't have stuff like morality and justice preying on his mind. But he does.
It's kind of a paradox how Seishin is so pessimistic and is empty inside and feels hopeless because of the village, yet Ozaki labels him an idealist. And contrastingly, Ozaki himself is more jaded despite being able to enjoy life a bit more. They're really excellent foils to each other! They are actually both proactive if you think about it, but in different ways: Seishin consistently tries to sort out how the world works, how feelings work, how he feels, etc; and Ozaki takes action without ever figuring out 'the world'. But it doesn't hinder him because it's not one of his main objectives, even though it is Seishin's. There's a difference of values there too.
The idea of Seishin resenting Ozaki was more of an extended guess on my part, just given what I know about them. It's really common in groups of friends for some to get jealous and secretly resent the other person--and then hate themselves for breeding such ill will to someone who's their friend. So, it would make sense if it was like this for Seishin towards Ozaki. Ozaki is approachable, he fits in with the village, he runs his branch of the village on his own terms...he must be somewhat on a pedestal in Seishin's eyes. So when Ozaki disappoints him by keeping the disease to himself, that might be why he retaliated so harshly. This isn't a new occurrence, so I guess that maybe when Seishin gets really mad at Ozaki the reason why he's so intense is because he doesn't want Ozaki to fall in his eyes. I'm making it sound like he worships Ozaki, but I don't feel like that's the case. I more agree with how you said that he doesn't realize it himself; maybe when they were both kids, Seishin more actively resented him for having more friends and being so outgoing, but that was superficial stuff. Now, Seishin has more deep reasons to resent Ozaki...but he's not a child, so maybe the thought doesn't even occur to him.
By them 'fighting' I just meant the decreasing compatibility between them. They kind of ended on a bad note when Ozaki declared that he was going to hunt down the Shiki (going off what I was saying before, maybe Seishin was partly so upset because he was so disillusioned by Ozaki and disappointed in him), but then towards the end they kind of just accept each other as being good people, but have no desire to resume their friendship because they know that it just can't work. For the first time in their lives, maybe they fully understand each other? Definitely though, being away from Ozaki will probably be good for Seishin. Unlike Ozaki, who makes him kind of confused, Sunako helps Seishin clarify his own thoughts. If his main objective is figuring out how the world works, she kind of helps him get that off of his mind by putting together the pieces to the puzzle and then, now that his mind is at peace, he can become more assertive and do stuff like chopping Ohkawa in half.
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It's kind of a paradox how Seishin is so pessimistic and is empty inside and feels hopeless because of the village, yet Ozaki labels him an idealist. And contrastingly, Ozaki himself is more jaded despite being able to enjoy life a bit more. They're really excellent foils to each other! They are actually both proactive if you think about it, but in different ways: Seishin consistently tries to sort out how the world works, how feelings work, how he feels, etc; and Ozaki takes action without ever figuring out 'the world'. But it doesn't hinder him because it's not one of his main objectives, even though it is Seishin's. There's a difference of values there too.
The idea of Seishin resenting Ozaki was more of an extended guess on my part, just given what I know about them. It's really common in groups of friends for some to get jealous and secretly resent the other person--and then hate themselves for breeding such ill will to someone who's their friend. So, it would make sense if it was like this for Seishin towards Ozaki. Ozaki is approachable, he fits in with the village, he runs his branch of the village on his own terms...he must be somewhat on a pedestal in Seishin's eyes. So when Ozaki disappoints him by keeping the disease to himself, that might be why he retaliated so harshly. This isn't a new occurrence, so I guess that maybe when Seishin gets really mad at Ozaki the reason why he's so intense is because he doesn't want Ozaki to fall in his eyes. I'm making it sound like he worships Ozaki, but I don't feel like that's the case. I more agree with how you said that he doesn't realize it himself; maybe when they were both kids, Seishin more actively resented him for having more friends and being so outgoing, but that was superficial stuff. Now, Seishin has more deep reasons to resent Ozaki...but he's not a child, so maybe the thought doesn't even occur to him.
By them 'fighting' I just meant the decreasing compatibility between them. They kind of ended on a bad note when Ozaki declared that he was going to hunt down the Shiki (going off what I was saying before, maybe Seishin was partly so upset because he was so disillusioned by Ozaki and disappointed in him), but then towards the end they kind of just accept each other as being good people, but have no desire to resume their friendship because they know that it just can't work. For the first time in their lives, maybe they fully understand each other?
Definitely though, being away from Ozaki will probably be good for Seishin. Unlike Ozaki, who makes him kind of confused, Sunako helps Seishin clarify his own thoughts. If his main objective is figuring out how the world works, she kind of helps him get that off of his mind by putting together the pieces to the puzzle and then, now that his mind is at peace, he can become more assertive and do stuff like chopping Ohkawa in half.